I still love him. I recognize that the moment I stop loving him is the moment that I'll have to walk away. The moment when we have that huge fight and I feel nothing about it.
It's a sobering thought. We've known each other for almost ten years now, and some of the magic has dissipated, but we're very comfortable together. Marriage is not all easy-peasy, it takes a lot of hard work and discipline to make it work. The alternative is to be alone, which doesn't seem that appealing.
The secret is to have little adventures each day, sometimes together, sometimes apart. I get pretty bored of all the things I've been doing lately, especially watching TV and video games. Yes, I am tired of video games.
When you're waiting around for Jet and possibly California to happen, it takes a lot of patience and a little faith. I have been waiting for a year and a half for something good to happen after I got fired for no good reason. I am so ready for a positive change! As long as I get plenty of rest and exercise, I feel I can cope with any sort of stress. I am looking forward to seeing my family in Montana, and to spending quality time with Mom, Pete, and Mary Anne. The poopy ones can go suck it!
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