Attachement

I feel a pull from two places. I feel it from my husband, and I feel it from my past. I want to resolve both of these someday, however, it seems that they are diametrically opposed. There's no point in being afraid to do anything. Perhaps the decision should be made, and my goals should reflect this decision.

The fact that I have no goal at this immediate moment is troubling. My personal struggles with resolving the issues I feel and the stress I undergo while finding the answers are essentially, the questions anyone my age will ask when they realize that their life goal has changed. What I feel is a definite need to have a more concrete purpose than just to be an artist, for those are a dime a dozen in my personal opinion. And many artists are just not that good, and think that they are all that. And they really aren't. What a shame it is, that I didn't realize sooner that this path that I am on would diverge away from the art and into something more personal.

I say again and again that I think that therapy is the way to go, yet I haven't had any personal experience in it. All I have done is listen to my friends and attempt to console them, and while I believe that this is a sort of therapy, it poses many questions for me. I am good at listening to people, but finding a solution to their problems while I can't even figure out my own? Is it even tangible that this is the right direction?