Thursday was an interesting day. I almost didn't go out to that art show, but decided to see what was up there anyways. While all the art show food had been demolished by the hungry crowd, the people stayed, chatting away, while two musicians did their thing for the event. It was nice. I ended up sharing a table with a lady who had spread tarot cards all over the table, calling it Mahjongg, which has always been to me an Oriental method of gambling. She did a reading for me, since it was what she did. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I wonder if this sort of thing is more a matter of perception than actually reading someone's future.
If you can pay attention to the subtle expressions that people make in conversation, you can generally tell what they want out of life and how they feel about the choices they make.
My question for her was, when we move, where would be the best place for us to go? And although I didn't really receive any answers than what I already knew, it did help clarify the options I'd rather do. Montana and California seem peaceful and realistic, while New York seems opportunistic. While the money holds, and the job search continues, I realize that it doesn't take a lot to make a living, and if I am working with good people, the worst job becomes enjoyable.
I've found a vague contentment, yet it is still an uneasy time for me. The hardest thing to do sometimes is finding a way to pass the time, and while there are parts of this town that I enjoy, there are others which drive me to distraction. In a way, this is just a sleepy beach town with high rent and few employment opportunities, and it is probably a good time for a change for us. It's hard to be patient and wait it out, and I'd like to make a decision so we can begin to plan for it. I know we've made some good friends here, and while it will be hard to say goodbye, it will be a necessary thing to advance his art career. I'm ready for a move. I've been here four years now, and now that I've seen how little there is, I'm getting cabin fever!
